Hurting, But Still Here

I knew I had to face and make it through the first year anniversary of Tom's unexpected passing. He has never once left my mind nor my heart and probably never will. It pains so much to write this, but I know he is physically around me, guiding my determination as I muddle through a most challenging period ever in my life. They say not to look back with regret, but focus forward. I'm trying my best to do that.

In my writing, I know I create a sort of immortality. Tom continues to have adventures, make people laugh, and seek out those who need a comforting purr. He also inspires some really out-of-nowhere creativity like the poem below. If you remember "Dog and Butterfly" by Heart, you can appreciate my attempt to have the same lovely tribute to cats everywhere:

THE CAT AND DRAGONFLY

The cat and dragonfly

Never really tell me why

The cat and dragonfly

Want to keep their secret

In hushed and still reply.

The cat and dragonfly

They’ll share it with the sky

The cat and dragonfly

Whisper it to birds, but why?

The cat and dragonfly

They’ll never tell you or I

The cat and dragonfly

They’ll keep their secret

Til they die

Til they die

Then watch the sky

Then 

      watch

  the

      sky.

6.17.14 ~  ©Julie Ross Mackenzie