Friday, December 31, 2010
Say what? I didn't believe it at first. My piss and vinegar pal has taken off for the Rainbow Bridge? But, he was tough as nails, tougher than I'll ever be. I'm angry and upset.
I've always tried to be good, but honestly, right now, I don't care. It's not fair. It gets me so mad, I don't give a damn about all that's holy! There, I said it, aaarghh!
After awhile, I realized I wasn't making any sense, and Vinny would have been the first one to point it out, too.
I've calmed down a little, but my heart's still all torn up. Vinny and I were good friends.
Julie and I finally had our conversation about him:
Tom: We were supposed to adopt him when Patsy died. That was the plan. What are you going to do about this, with your fancy-shmancy book and everything?
Julie: You're in the book, Tom, but Vinny--well, he was going to have a bigger role on the blog.
Tom: Well, his passing certainly shot that in the a**.
Julie: You're beginning to sound like him.
Tom: You bet. And it feels real good, too.
Julie: Do whatever makes you feel better. It's fine with me.
(a long silence)
Tom: I'd give anything just to talk to him one more time.
Julie: Me, too.
Tom: I love you, Jul.
Julie: I love you too, precious. We'll get through this, I promise. We'll continue our tales and your blog. I think I even have a couple of posts about Vinny, in fact, that I never used.
Tom: Really? Cool!
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Thank you so much for all of your kind words and comfort. I heard from dear ones I didn't even know, but appreciate everything you all have said to help us through. I have read each and every one of your comments over and over. I never, ever imagined I would be sharing such sadness, or be lifted by such kindness. Again, thank you.